Missing, but responsible.

I’m reading Girl Genius, a funny and very active webcomic. The initial art style put me off, but now that I’m a decade into it, the artists have definitely come into their own. I’m reading where Agatha Heterodyne has been missing for two and a half years. She only experienced about a week of being missing, but her boyfriend has been searching for her and worrying about her, as well as maintaining his father’s empire, and losing sleep. The look on his face haunts me; I have felt that. I miss my husband very, very much, not even in the sense of wanting him here, but in the sense of having a hole in my heart, a hollow in my spirit, a vacant place where there should be comfort and security and laughter. It’s like having a tooth missing.

Agatha doesn’t even get to meet Gil right away;. she’s been kidnapped and has to fight off several other people before she can even think about getting to where he is. And then there’s political intrigue and other priorities. I can’t join my husband; I have children to raise to adulthood, and then I have this blog to write and people to encourage and the world to make a better place, in whatever way I’m called on to do. Agatha has responsibilities. A big part of what makes her and Gil compelling characters is that they care a lot about the people around them, not just themselves. They both choose to act responsibly, which for them means doing a hundred other things while meeting each other has to wait. I have to keep hope that they will meet up, as I know I will meet my husband in the next life.